I was visited by Santa Muerte on All Souls Day in 2015. She came to my bedside and woke me up. See, I had gathered my girlfriends, that afternoon, on All Saints Day, for a ceremony honoring the dark mother and this was her way of thanking me. What really surprised me though was this dark mother looked a lot like the Grim Reaper. She was dressed all in black and carrying a scythe. She must have sensed that I was a little frightened because when she spoke her voice sent out a calming vibration.
“Thank you for honoring me today”
I started to well up with emotions so I couldn’t speak.
“May I ask a favor of you?”
I remember nodding, “yes” but I must have fallen back to sleep because when I woke up the next morning, I could not remember what she wanted me to do. I began meditating to Santa Muerte and she reconnected with me in the dream-world. She took me by the hand and led me through a passage to a place where people were celebrating death. They were crowded together laughing and throwing red sand in the air. Then, I was taken to another place where I witnessed one person weeping alone at his kitchen table. Santa Muerte turned to me and spoke only one sentence.
“Change the meaning of death”
I was hoping there would be simple instructions but instead, Santa Muerta knew I needed to experience it. Last January I came face to face with death. My son Cody tried to commit suicide last January. He is twenty-one years old and has suffered from mental illness and drug abuse for the past five years. He claimed it was due to his meth addiction but it was indeed a desperate cry for help because he shot himself in the hospital parking lot and then walked in.
He collapsed on the floor with a gunshot to the chest. When my husband Kent got the call, Cody was already in surgery and we were out of town. We had a two-hour car ride and about half-way, I suddenly felt my son’s soul leave his body. I began sobbing uncontrollably and called out to Santa Muerte.
“Cody is with me” She calmly spoke
“Thank you Mother” I cried
When we saw Cody in recovery, I praised her. Then I praised his team of doctors and we hugged our son. I was so exhausted, we left to go home while he slept. I lay my head down and Santa Muerte comes to me.
“Hurry Shelli, you need to pray for Cody right now!”
At that moment Kent’s cell phone rings and I just about jump out of my skin. It’s the hospital requesting permission for an emergency blood transfusion. I closed my eyes and laid there praying until we received the call that Cody was stable. It was miraculous how Cody’s body healed so quickly. I know that I had a chain of prayer warriors sending him healing and I truly had high hopes for his mentality.
Sadly though only a few months later, Cody took off to California in the middle of the night. He literally left with the clothes on his back. He had no cell phone, wallet or ID so I prayed to Santa Muerte.
“Please protect my son’s life as you have done so many times ~ thank you”
Cody called us and had made it to Colorado Springs but his breaks went out so he was doing odd jobs to get them fixed. We tried to convince him to come home but he was on a mission and insisted on making it to California. I called upon Santa Muerte and she became my saving grace. Whenever I would think of my son out there all alone, I would send Santa Muerte to his side. I mean who is really going to mess with the Mother of death?
When Cody finally makes it to Los Angeles, his car gets impounded and he became homeless. We told him to find a shelter and then I called upon Santa Muerta. She sent a Good Samaritan to get Cody off the streets and helped Cody onto a Greyhound bus back to Minnesota.
Unfortunately, my story doesn’t have a happy ending but rather it’s a continuing saga. My son is still struggling with mental illness and I see no end in sight. It saddens me to watch him being so lost and I think that’s why I had such a tough time writing this blog.
I really didn’t feel I had changed the meaning of death in my life. In fact, I seemed to helpless to even save my own son but Santa Muerte felt differently. She showed me that when I faced death, I had her by my side and that changed everything. I started to see that she was right. I was no longer alone or afraid of death, instead, I had the Saint of Death to share the sorrow and carry the burden for me.
Thank you for listening to my story and if you are interested in more information about Santa Muerte, check out “Believers” on CNN.com. Reza Aslan does a segment entitled, “By embracing death, Santa Muerte followers enjoy life.”
In the article, Aslan describes why Santa Muerte is so popular.
“Death plays no favorites, rich or poor, powerful or peasant, death comes for everyone…transgender, gay and lesbians, prostitutes, felons and drug traffickers…where people feel abandoned by both church and state, Santa Muerte has created a new growing faith community for whom death is not to be feared but venerated.